19.7.07
Okay sorry I know I was not being nice at all just now but I can't help being pissed can I! =x
Thursday, July 19, 2007
27.6.07
A sad fact of life that I have just realised.
Person A and Person B can both be saying exactly the same thing to me. Person A will make me laugh, but person B can piss me off instead.
Sigh, I swear I am not a really biased person. It's just the way a person says something I guess. The tone, the implication of it all, it's just very different.
I want to go back to where things were simpler, even if they actually weren't that simple. Somehow the past always seems more comforting than the present. What happened then seems so much easier to forgive than what you are facing with now.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
24.6.07
there's school tomorrow =x i am not going to dread it. i am going to try my best not to dread the whole term ahead. not very easy though, especially when i am worrying about a hundred and one things linked in one or another way to school.
Camp was very slack and quite relaxing. I think the first day was the most tiring! Thanks to my group which had yangyi who was so enthu about the scavenger hunt, and cheryl who sprints super fast whenever she feels like it. Anyway, I still like my group =D cos jiayin wanted a reshuffle (it wasn't me who suggested the reshuffle lor!) so i happily agreed. Yangyi got the task that I wanted her to get! The try on weird clothes task. She's probably the most sporting one and I was very amused by her throughout the whole camp.
In the end both yangyi and chu ning had the highest marks for the posing for photographs! But we didn't win the overall cos the group that arrived first had the bonus points. Oh well, I still got my pillow in the end! Xinyi's group had one less people so I took the last $1.80 pillow, which was extremely comfortable by the way.
Yup so basically the whole camp was just training, playing cards, playing the intellectual game that jiaolian taught to me kristie and xinyi when she was supposed to be watching over the sec2 and sec4 training, watching scary movie 4 and step up and talking. Kristie and Hsiuchin left the second day )= I slept at 4am the second night and was probably one of the first to sleep. And I have learnt to appreciate my sleeping bag a lot more! yumei was so jealous of my sleeping bag. I bet she was suffering on her super thin/no padding sleeping bag.
Had macs breakfast the last day and broke camp early.
Yup that's about it. I am feeling very sleepy now so I don't feel like blogging in detail. I think yangyi's blog has a one thousand word long post on the camp.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
20.6.07
I swear I will never go home from the Bugis interchange alone! Okay I remember the last time I went there it was like 7 something and getting dark and all around me people were smoking and boarding weird buses to go to JB and paikia looking taxi driver asked me if i wanted to take his taxi. Anyway, was at Bugis with Sarah after a tiring hunt for haunted house stuff which was not all that productive and I already warned her about the interchange being ulu but she wanted to take bus instead of mrt so we went there again and I think Sarah got a culture shock =) and melissa ho was not helping the least bit when we called and asked her where we should board 170 by saying that there was a SAFER bus stop a long way ahead.
Anyway, managed to find the pillows at ikea yesterday =) but I feel so stupid for not buying one extra one for myself just in case my group didn't win.
Camp tomorrow! Hope it will be fun. Hope nothing bad happens, but something quite bad already did )=
Anyway, get well soon Cherie! Must really take care and rest well okay. So scary =x
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
7.6.07
Off to south africa!
Will be back early morning of 16th.
Don't miss me!
Thursday, June 07, 2007
1.6.07
Hello! Finally here to blog about my whole hectic and tiring but enjoyable week. Okay shall do this in a chronological order!
Sunday! Went to watch Pirates Of The Carribean 3. The show wasn't that good. The contents, and neither the actors, were really worth paying close attention to for the whole 2 hour 48 minutes. Yes I caught huifun sleeping at one part! Though I would too, if it was my second time watching the movie. I think Orlando Bloom's looks are getting worse each movie. Anyway, before we met, Melissa was super blur. First she walked right past huifun and wingyau without noticing them, and after I joined wingyau and huifun, she walked right past us again. I didn't know the 3 of us blended into the background so well =x anyway, I felt really short until sheila came! Okay. I didn't feel any taller after she came but at least I knew someone felt err, a bit shorter than me =) We ate at ichiban for lunch and we already contemplated a few times whether we should just eat at the foodcourt cos our time was really running short. We were like, stand up sit down stand up sit down and finally we went in. Oh and the smartest thing sheila and huifun actually did that day was to stuff in sheila's juice into huifun's bag right before we went into the cinema where all the people tearing the tickets were staring at them, highly amused.
Monday! I had to do my make up CIP with liwen and was made to shop with her before that. We ate at pepper lunch =D Anyway, it didn't turn out that bad I guess, cos I was quite amused by her and her obsession with finding work to do just so that she can buy her $89.90 mermaid's Sister's bag. I don't know why she calls the bag that. Okay maybe I didn't notice but the brand name may be called Mermaid or is famous for having a Mermaid imprinted on each of it's designs so this bag that she likes has a picture of a mermaid that looks like The Mermaid's sister and so she calls it the mermaid's sister bag. Anyway, pardon me for my lack of knowledge, but please do not expect me to take notice of mermaids.
Tuesday! Was a rest day. Wanted to complete some of my homework. ended up watching my beloved (yay!) and cough, playing neopets.
Wednesday! Got my treat from the team at sake sushi in marina square. kristie elaine and cherie are such money cheaters. I have SUCH a great appetite and i am so thickskinned yeah -.- I think chawanmushi is nice and I have no idea why elaine chia doesn't like it at all. First time i see someone not being able to finish it. Spent the day walking around and taking photos in the toilet. I think all those people walking in think we are very weird. But the mirror is big and nice and the toilet doesn't smell bad or anything =) Sat at gelare and played cards while waiting for grace and hsiuchin to come over after their bsp camp. Elaine had to leave before they came. How shi bai. it's been more than 3 years and we have not had a 6 people team outing, not even for 1 minute. Yup and after they came we hanged around a while more and later hsiuchin grace and I went to burger king, and yes we played cards again. Hoho I am so going to join bridge club!
the collage which kristie made!
Anyway, thankyou hsiuchin for the nice watch that you made for me! One of the best gifts I have received and I appreciate it more than how I expressed it to you that day with just that 'thankyou'. I am someone who does not use superlative terms even when necessary.
Thursday! Happy birthday to jiayin and myself =D Thanks for all the smses/msn messages/phone calls etc. Had some nice surprises =)
Yup and I let myself sleep in rather nicely on that day. I turned up at taka fashionably late, as proclaimed to wingyau. I thought it was the first time I was so late (in this case, it means a short 10 minutes). Ate pepper lunch again! I got it free thanks to huifun being a fervent supporter of pepper lunch. She had her whole card stamped and so she gave her free meal thing to me. Thankyou huifun and wingyau for the shirt! and err sheila's future pencil case hahaha. Shrek 3 was quite nice, despite not getting that good reviews. Certainly better than pirates of the carribean 3. Watch it if you want short lasting but frequent laughs. I think the donkey looks rather much liks patricia mok when it acts cute though. Had dessert after the movie, huifun and wingyau's waffles were burnt to wingyau's shade of brown. My two scoops of ice cream were super huge.
Was made to go to my grandaunt's house, and my grandaunt has the same birthday as me. I was well, anti social over there as usual (who am I supposed to talk to over there? the only grandaunt i find able to talk to is the one born on 31st may too but she was busy entertaining guests) okay so you can't blame me for just sitting on the sofa and stoning. I was too full to eat so i really did nothing. My sister didn't even come with me.
On the way home, this taxi suddenly reversed while our car was turning in and my mother just managed to brake in time, so the taxi ended up hitting the front part of our car. if my mother didnt brake in time it would have crashed into us! the us meaning people, meaning my mother, who was screeching away, and I. Okay luckily nothing bad happened! Later i end up in the hospital on my birthday.
Friday! I overslept. I seriously overslept by like 1 hour plus. I woke up and got a shock when my sister told me the time. I had to rush all the way to orchard by a taxi which costs a bomb and which my sister happily hopped on for a free lift and I was 40-45 minutes late. Sorry sixuan! Elaine chia was late as well, but that's common for people like her. I, on the other hand, thought it rather unusual when I was late for 10 minutes and so this 40 minutes late thing is really a new thing for me. Anyway, we didn't go kboxing at first cos sixuan managed to talk elaine out of it. heard they went later though. Went browsing around, and as I told sam, it's as if visiting one top shop isn't enough and we had to visit 2. Okay so I flipped through the clothes racks trying to look interested but it's rather difficult, taking into consideration that I do not wear skimpy clothes and neither do I have the kind of money to spend. Sat at macdonalds and reminisced about our primary school stuff. Like the fun fair where we sold pizza bread but the tomata sauce dropped onto the ground and someone actually smeared the pizza bread on the tomato sauce which was on the ground and sold it to other people.
And elaine! I am not stressful lah, especially if you compare me to my fellow 31st may counterpart =)
I had to leave earlier to go home and rest a while and shower. Thankyou to my mother for being there whenever I need her - to fetch me, and thank you to my dad for leaving the car behind when he goes overseas.
Okay at night went to have dinner with estella yenjin and chewfei and her junior haha. walked around aimlessly while waiting for our dear yenjin. okay but i shall forgive her because the chocolates will not be as cold as they should be if she came earlier =) And I still think that esplanade is a nice place! We wanted to play cards (again) and so we sat at this corner of the library and played but it closed quite soon after we finally sat down. Anyway, yenjin was fretting about how scary this poster of a woman looked and took a while to get her to finally sit down with us. Then we went to the roof top terrace haha and sat on the spiky grass and played cards. I had good luck and I partnered the dummy for all my games and together, we won! The key to success? teamwork and cooperation =)
Please let me know if you actually read the whole thing, I want to commend you.
Total japanese owned/ japanese restaurants I have dined in from sunday to today: 5
Total times I played cards when I was outside: 3
okay nvm, this is extra.
Friday, June 01, 2007
24.5.07
I miss jumping i miss running i miss jumping i miss running.
I want to jump I want to run I want to jump I want to run.
I don't want to feel like an old person!
)=
Moral of the story. Love your knees.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
21.5.07
Actually, I can take criticism. What I can't take is being talked down to, especially by someone who literally has to crane her neck up when talking to me. Don't think you are so great just because you have more _____ than me! )=
Oh and the first day of sabbaticals were really boring. Hopefully it wont be as bad the next few days! Though I seriously doubt it. Sungei buloh. How interesting hoho. Nevermind I shall look forward to Sunday! =)
Give me time and I'll give you my best.
Monday, May 21, 2007
16.5.07
Great boredom killers
1. Watch boiling point
2. Play neopets
3. Listen to fei ni mo shu over and over again
Staying at home is not bad afterall. Just that day Cherie and I were talking about falling sick and staying in a hospital and half my wish came true =) Initially I was supposed to see a doctor for my knee problem but on the way there I decided I felt quite sick so actually I went to see the doctor for like 4 things. Saw wingyau at the clinic! So amusing. Her germs must have somehow made their way through the walls and airspaces and landed on me.
Being a gp is not bad. I calculated that if he/she has a profit of $20 per patient, and judging on the rate my doctor managed to clear her patients away in half an hour, she would make like $240 per hour. Per hour! All she needs is to work 5 hours a day and she will earn $24,000 in one month. Well, this is including the fact that this is the sick season, so maybe some months she will earn less but still, all she needs to work is 5 hours a day! My poor father works twice that amount and doesn't earn as much.
Being caught on boiling point is a not bad way of earning quick money too. If you actually have the luck to be caught on boiling point often enough to last you through the month. One day I shall start my own boiling point series and test it out on people! I think I know who is the number one candidate to lose, judging by her kind of behaviour =)
Anyway, thankyou estella for taking bus all the way just to pass me 1 a3 paper and 2 a5 sized papers =) And debbie tang, for amusing me with the fact that you actually queued 2 and a half hours for donuts -.-
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
12.5.07
Visit this website and watch the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj9swNR5-lY&mode=related&search
(it's my humps by black eyed peas btw, so don't bother visiting if you've already watched the video before)
And now, go and watch this!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZw-8RSyvh8
=)
I saved money today and ate fried hokkien mee ($2 only) instead of macdonalds after training. A round of applause please.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
8.5.07
It feels great to be able to jump; jump with both feet.
When you're up there, you'll forget that it actually hurts to land.
You won't remember that the higher your jump is, the harder the impact of your landing will be.
I would give anything for those moments, though it's just split seconds that they last for.
Exchange of knees, anyone?
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
8.5.07
It feels great to be able to jump; jump with both feet.
When you're up there, you'll forget that it actually hurts to land.
You won't remember that the higher your jump is, the harder the impact of your landing will be.
I would give anything for those moments, though it's split seconds they last for.
Exchange of knees, anyone?
7.5.07
I have this sudden urge to blog about our flag day on saturday though I don't know why. I guess it was just because of how successful my attempt was =D
Actually my dad told me not to take 170 because I would end up at the weird and ulu interchange where chee kok pehs love to gather around but I would have been late cos 171 happily zoomed right past me so I decided to take the risk and board 170. I thought that at least my skirt isn't like as short as kristie wong's or something, so nothing really bad will happen. Okay and luckily seeting boarded the same bus too, someone to share the attention of chee kok pehs with me.
Things that went well.
A point to note when doing flag day. City hall mrt entrance has good feng shui! Stood there for barely ten minutes and most of the people who walked by donated.
Things that did not go well:
1) I want to sue the guard came along and said that only 2 of us could stand at the mrt entrance, so being the sacrificial person that I am, I left the place together with kristie and elaine, and decided we could just depend on our talent and not fengshui. Somewhere in this point of time, Cherie Chua did something that amused me greatly.
2) I want to sue the door stopper at the entrance to city link mall. Someone walks by and starts pushing open the door. I rush forward eagerly with my heavy tin can. The door gets pushed too hard against the stopped and bounces back on to the person. The person collects himself/herself, brushes off whatever 'dirt' they thought got on their clothes, and parades on, too embarrassed to pause and donate to me.
3)I want to sue elaine and kristie for using their whatever girl charm that I apparently lack to steal my business. The dilligent me works hard and competes with elaine to approach people for donations. Somehow, people can't just stick to one spot when taking out their wallets but have to stroll forward (away from me) and in the end they conveniently donate to kristie wong or elaine chia (who did not utter a single word) instead of me. Silence is golden, how true.
Oh well, in the end, my tin can was still the heaviest in the whole b div team. =D
p.s. my opening door service was a downright failure on the first attempt. I opened the door for the woman and she walked out by the other door.
Monday, May 07, 2007
29.4.07
I just realised I have been stuck on my 279th post for the past 22 or so days. And anyway, since it's a sunday and the week has been pretty much interesting, or rather more different from other weeks, I shall do a recap on some of the points I have made during the week.
I know the world is unfair and maybe it's because I've been part of the side of people that have been receiving our fair share of the world's fairness, I am not used to this sudden realisation of unfairness at all. I have read in many articles or stories of how perseverance is the key to everything. Work hard, give in your best and no matter how painful the process is, you will reach where you want to be one day. This being the message conveyed, I applied it into the various aspects of my life, and I realised that being a fervent supporter of this rule of perseverance does not always get you to the place that you want to be. You can put in 200% of effort for something and get nothing in the end, simply because there is such a thing in the world as biasness. And when you realise that, do you carry on and continue to blindly persevere, because people have told you that perseverance is everything? Maybe sometimes, it's really just better to accept that some things will never go the way you want them to be. It's not about giving up and being a so called quiter, because accepting is not an easy process as well and will also need some form of perseverance to achieve.
And this links to the point about freedom of choice. Sometimes, I wish I could go up to some people and give them the tight slap on their faces (don't take it literally) that they deserve, and walk away without once feeling guilty. Maybe that's why there are many times where things end up working against me. I feel guilty after being mean to the people who really deserve it. And I don't know why I always end up giving in to people just because they are better at expressing their anger. Let's face it, we all have our own problems that we keep inside. Do we really need to let our choices be decided by the ones who are simply not as good as hiding their problems? I really hope I do not become just like any other person who blindly follows what si supposed to be "right". I do not want to end up being governed by my fear of upsetting others.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
7.4.07
Movies I want to watch this year:
1) Spider Man 3 - 1 may
2)Pirates of the Carribean 3, at world's end - 24 may
3) Shrek the third - 31 may ahem ahem
4) Ocean's thirteen - 7 june
5) Harry potter and the order of the phoenix- 12 july
6) Rush hour 3 - 9 August
7) The Bourne ultimatum- 13 August
Okay I shall stop at the number 7! Since it's a nice number. Actually there are a few more, but I shall not get my hopes too high. Something wonderful called the singapore censorship board will just come and ruin my plans sooner or later anyway. Seing that there was a period of time where 3/4 of the movies showing were not PG, i'm quite sure there will come a day when shrek the number dunno what will be rated NC-16. Okay, exaggeration, but i'm still not satisfied over the fact that around half of the list of movies I wanted to watch all had certain ratings. Oh well, I'm still happy about shrek 3 =D a perfect release date if you ask me.
Saturday, April 07, 2007
29.3.07
For every part of me that likes you, there will be another part that actually dislikes you a lot.
For every part of me that wants to trust you, there will be other parts of me telling myself to watch my back.
For every part of me that wishes to believe you have good intentions, there will also be a part of me that doubts everything that you do.
Hoho the complicated "split personality" of a gemini!
But really, sometimes I don't know whether I really feel happy when I see you.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
25.3.07
This is quite dumb. I'm blogging when I can't even see my own blog. Well, don't know whether it's just my computer or what. Anyway, I'm here to complain about the marche at vivo city!
1) it's quite cram and squeezy
2) the air con not cold enough
3) the mushroom soup not up to standard
4) The most irritating one. They didn't have rosti with egg so the guy asked me if I wanted to add mushrooms instead and didn't tell me, or at least hint, that it was going to cost such a bomb. In the end after I bought, and sheila bought the same thing, she told me that the whole thing costs $12.80. A rosti with sourcream costs $4.20, and this is with the addition of mushrooms only. So it means that stupid pile of mushrooms cost $8.60. grah.
And both of us were quite full from the popcorns so we couldn't finish the rosti. We should have shared instead, then we still could have eaten dessert. Oh well, at least our movie tickets, popcorns and 2 large drinks were free =D
Sunday, March 25, 2007
17.3.07
One fine day when we had a lot of free time, we were in the middle of playing bridge when a teacher walked pass.
Kristie: *put down some cards and pretended to be talking about rotation on court* ....so you move to san hao wei and stand there.
Elaine: *wearing a look of utmost enthusiasm on her face* Okay okay, put more put more! (asking kristie to put down more cards)
Me: * thinking: elaine quite smart hor, know how to play along!
Kristie: *puts down a few more cards and continues talking about rotation
Elaine: *still looking as eager as ever* put more, put more!
After a while the teacher was out of sight and we took back our cards.
Me: Okay, continue!
Elaine: *wearing a shocked expression on her face* Huh, you not teaching me the positions on court meh?
Poor elaine actually thought that we would pause in the middle of a bridge game and suddenly start teaching her about how to rotate on court. Talk about having the passion to learn.
Actually, it's a lot funnier if you see thewhole thing happening. After all, my vocabulary is not wide enough to be able to aptly describe elaine's expressions in words.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
11.3.07
Back from OBS! I don't think I will go into much details. Anyway, in general it was quite fun. I don't like the trekking part, but oh well, I feel consoled because I know some people trekked thrice as much as I did, so I shall not complain. I feel rather unhealthy. Since I have been back I have been indulging myself in sweet drinks whenever possible, especially milo! I have been craving for it throughout the 5 days. Estella probably heard me say the word Milo more than 20 times! Strangely, I missed it more than anything else.
Oh and I decided that I totally do not like the sight of dying fish that hops up and down. When we were kayaking at this particularly choppy part of the sea, this fish happily (or sadly) came into my kayak together with the wave and started dancing around my leg. And of course I didn't dare to touch it (chewfei can laugh at me for being un-man) so I ended up stepping on the fish trying to get it to stop hopping around and thus comitted murder. I can't believe some people actually think the fish is cute.
I think I have slept quite a lot but I am still feeling sleepy! At least nothing really happened to me. I didn't get darker, my mosquito bites are not itchy anymore and my voice sounds a lot smoother than hsiuchin's croaky voice over the phone.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
24.2.07
I finally changed my blogskin! There was some problem with the previous skin. I wouldn't have been forced to change otherwise. Anyway, I feel too lazy to update the links just yet.
One more week of school to go! There's still IH test and a.lit test but nevermind. I'm starting to feel very slack already. I hope the week passes quickly.
Not much time to blog now, I'll update later.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
2.2.07
For the next few days, please don't:
-tell me I played well. I know people mean well when they say this, but please, don't.
-leave me hanging there with nothing to do or nothing happy to think about. I would end up thinking about what jiaolian said.
-tell me not to cry. Especially don't say it in chinese. Reverse psychology works at times. It makes me want to cry even more.
I realised how emotions can change within a minute. One moment I will feel happy. I can still laugh a lot and talk like any happy person should. The next moment is a different story.
To my seniors, regardless of whether any of you will read this or not, I just want to say that you don't need a trophy to spell out how great each and everyone of you are. All of you have worked harder than anything for this competition and really, for today's match, we really fought our hearts out. We were against shuqun after all, and hey, we did win one set and we didn't get thrashed. Maybe that's something we shouldn't feel too bad about.
Thankyou, for teaching me how to serve and spike and all that when I was in sec 1. It was because of all of you that I really learnt. Thankyou, for helping me to jie1 all the balls that I should jie1 on court but don't dare to. Thankyou, for being patient and forgiving cos I don't play very well and compared to you I'm nothing. And sorry, I didn't have a chance to 'pay' you all back by helping to get into nationals. Continue to work hard and never give up because I'm sure all of you will pride in volleyball in JC!
Okay I must think of funny/happier things now!
-this little girl came up to me when we were da3 fang-ing and said "eh you from 207 ah?" I took a while to realise she was yixian's sister. And what the hell! She asked me that question because she thought I was lynn cheng. I am insulted.
-Grace was telling us about someone breaking 3 "lab tops" during chemistry. In my mind, I was thinking of correcting it to test tubes but for some strange reason I opened my mouth and said that they were called "tube tops"
-I laughed and was generally happy during the bus ride home with hsiuchin and grace
Friday, February 02, 2007
20.1.07
No matter how much you feel that some things were not meant for you
they were and they happened for a reason.
You may not have deserved the kind of hurt they caused you
but eventually, you realise that the pain makes you grow.
Though security is what everyone needs,
it's the dangers you're exposed to that builds up your courage.
After a while, you realise that you really can accept.
The journey of bonding may not be as smooth as the result
Just remember that whatever we feel, others feel too.
Don't cling on to the mistakes made
After all, forgiveness heals even the deepest of wounds.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
10.1.07
Focus...! But really, what am I supposed to focus on? What do I really want? I don't know. I thought long and hard about it, and I still can't find an answer. All I know is that I need to focus, and just what I need to focus on is something i'm not even clear of.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
6.1.07
I just thought of something silly and rather embarrassing that I did long long ago. Okay maybe it isn't as long as what you call "long long ago", but I'd rather put it as long long ago. At least some censorship on the time I did such a thing would help to make the situation less embarrassing. I mean, if I told you that when I was five or six, I thought that cows with brown spots produced chocolate milk, you won't think of it as an embarrassing mistake, would you?
So back to the point. There was one day (i'm sure it happened more than a year ago!) in which the sun rays were practically glaring down into my balcony, and it happened during that phase where I had that misconception that it was 'good' to look tanned and so, controlling my excitement from the realisation that I didn't actually need to go to a beach to get my lovely little tan because strong sunlight has just arrived conveniently at my doorstep, I paraded out into my balcony and stood there basking in the attention of the sun. I shall not go into details about what I did and how stupid I must have looked to the neighbours in the opposite block who could have easily seen me. After half an hour or so, I went back in with this "ta-da!" feeling, as if I had just won a race or something.
So my point now is, some people have the misconception that looking tanned makes you look more macho or more sporty, but it's not true is it? Some people just happen to have more exposure to the sun and that's why they get their tan, and some people are just born darker, but then there are those people who make trips down to lie either on the beach or on the deck chairs lining swimming pools, or worse still the tanning studio. And well, you can't really call these people macho can you? I guess being dark proves nothing important about a person. Goodluck to you, who is still obsessed with walking on "the part of the ground with the most sunlight".
Saturday, January 06, 2007
6.1.07
I just thought of something silly and rather embarrassing that I did long long ago. Okay maybe it isn't as long as what you call "long long ago", but I'd rather put it as long long ago. At least some censorship on the time I did such a thing would help to make the situation less embarrassing. I mean, if I told you that when I was five or six, I thought that cows with brown spots produced chocolate milk, you won't think of it as an embarrassing mistake, would you? So back to the point. There was one day (i'm sure it happened more than a year ago!) in which the sun rays were practically glaring down into my balcony, and it happened during that phase where I had that misconception that it was 'good' to look tanned and so, controlling my excitement from the realisation that I didn't actually need to go to a beach to get my lovely little tan because strong sunlight has just arrived conveniently at my doorstep, I paraded out into my balcony and stood there basking in the attention of the sun. I shall not go into details about what I did and how stupid I must have looked to the neighbours in the opposite block who could have easily seen me. After half an hour or so, I went back in with this "ta-da!" feeling, as if I had just won a race or something.
So my point now is, some people have the misconception that looking tanned makes you look more macho or more sporty, but it's not true is it? Some people just happen to have more exposure to the sun and that's why they get their tan, and some people are just born darker, but then there are those people who make trips down to lie either on the beach or on the deck chairs lining swimming pools, or worse still the tanning studio. And well, you can't really call these people macho can you? I guess being dark proves nothing important about a person. Goodluck to you, who is still obsessed with walking on "the part of the ground with the most sunlight".
31.12.06
I am obliged to help sheila post something!
sheila((: says:
cos you are born nice
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and smart
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and helpful
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and king
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kind*
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and generous
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and spirited
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so this is why you are obliged to help me
haha i think by the time people read finish what's on top they won't read the bottom thing anymore!
Okay but for the sake of being obliged to help her, I am here to announce that sheila's face in the photo on the track board is scratched because she scratched it off herself. She scratched it off herself because one day, she was scurrying super fast on the track, and at that very moment when a person took her picture, her gorgeous looking face didn't get reflected appropriately by the camera, making her look ummm, not as gorgeous. So it's not because somebody hates her or something. Okay done! =D
Sunday, December 31, 2006
30.12.06
hmm I shall list out the movies I want to watch next year!
-pirates of the carribean 3
-shrek 3
-ocean's 13
-harry potter and the order of the phoenix
-the illusionist
-spider man 3
one last dance
-the bourne ultiomatum
-I'm a cyborg but that's okay hahaha!
okay i think so far it's these movies. There are quite a few more but I shall not list out or else the list will be too long and I will seem very greedy.
Just realised how different next year is going to be, even during the time we sing mari kita raa! No more melissa ho trying to stand as near to me as possible so that I can smell her head and shoulders shampoo and start on my sneezing spree (after which we will be like laughing throughout the rest of the song), and no more joey hok behind me screaming "brocoli!" whenever melissa forces me to move back as much as I can to avoid her head and shoulders shampoo smell. But it's really a wonder how joey has stood behind me for 2 years and yet she never sneezed a single time. As in, I think my whole bush of a hair was really close to her face la!
And whatever, congzhi! people who take lit got a special look that I apparently don't have is it! very bad lah you.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
26.12.06
ahh! I have been so busy these few days. With relative number dunno what who has just come from dunno where filling up all my nights. raah. And it's not like I really talk to them a lot. The children are all so young and the adults are well, adults. My sister has somehow managed to find a way to miss quite a few of these stuff, leaving me to sit there by myself and look at my niece and nephews (i'm not being biased but they're really the cutest of the lot). And somehow these meetings all have to end later than 10! Oh well, as my sister said, next time we won't be having such dinners anymore because by the time we grow up our three cousins would become old! So no more bbq party or whatever.
And I am damn pissed but I don't know what to do or how to deal with it. Nevermind, I shall go to sleep and maybe when I wake up tomorrow I will find a way to handle everything and then maybe by then I won't feel so loser-rish. There's nothing I can blame and I want to blame it on everything.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
23.12.06
Here's to all the people who think that it's crazy or inappropriate to laugh so much.
A good hearty laugh can help:
reduce stress,
lower blood pressure,
elevate mood,
boost immune system ,
improve brain functioning,
protect the heart,
connect you to others,
foster instant relaxation, and
make you feel good.
I shall try to have a good and hearty laugh at least once a day! =D
Laughing is good.
okay this is rather retarded, but people shall not give me that kind of look when i get into my fit of continuous laughter.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
14.12.06
Hoho I am going to Thailand tomorrow! Land of fbts and fake birkenstocks, according to some people =)
anyway, eragon is quite nice but not really that exceptional or anything. I think it could have been longer! The bonus that I was sitting right in the middle of the screen =) And we spent like dunno how long at the neoprint machine after that. Only sheila and huifun weren't bored I think. And huifun is super funny! This is the 2nd time she has managed to sign into msn this month because the rest of the times she spent one hour trying to sign in but failed.
I don't think I will want my holiday in Thailand to end! Everything is going to be like so rushed when I come back. We must cram everything in like 2 days, gosh.
Okay I shall sleep now.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
9.12.06
There are two people/things which I would like to sue for causing me utter embarrassment yesterday.
Number 1: Wu wing yau! For sms-ing and secretly trying to distract me so that I would be oblivious to my surroundings and have no idea WHERE I am headed to. She was prepared to sit back, relax, and have a great laugh at me.
Number 2: The stupid female toilet sign! The skirt wasn't wide and obvious enough, so innocent people like me who are distracted by wu wing yau did not notice that the sign actually meant a female toilet and I stupidly headed towards the toilet next door.
In the end I had this very "wrong" feeling and a split second later I spotted a guy's reflection in the mirror washing hands. I dashed out and without thinking, headed straight into the female toilet with a cleaner standing outside watching my every move.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
1.12.06
Ahh I just realised the long long post I typed yesterday didn't get published! Anyway heck. I don't really feel the urge to blog these day. And I think that people should never discuss stuff about china or taiwan or attempt to speak some cheem chinese sentence in front of me! It's very demoralising okay, I don't understand a single thing you all were talking about )= And elaine still bothered to ask me how many tang ci's I can memorise. Like I can even memorise one like that.
I should really be doing something this holiday instead of wasting my time away but I don't know what I should do. raah. And everything I'm attempting to download keeps getting cut off halfway.
But maybe it's good to have so much spare time as well. It really makes you look back on things that have happened this year, and I suddenly remembered this.
I know it's my fault. If only I had made good use of that chance to really get to know you well. Unfortunately I had thought that I knew you well enough, that I really didn't need to put in anymore effort, and I guess that's part of the reason why things have ended up like that. We'll move on and pretend that nothing went wrong, that we were so close to being perfect, but I guess that punctured hole of regret can never really be filled up.
And when I have the courage, I'll go up and say sorry to you. It may be too late, but it's still better than not doing anything. When will I have the courage though? I have no idea.
Friday, December 01, 2006
29.11.06
"If tomatoes wanted to be melons,
they would look completely ridiculous.
I am always amazed
That so many people are concerned
with wanting to be what they are not;
what's the point of making yourself look ridiculous?"
hahaha I just find this section of a poem taken off a short article in paulo coelho's Like the Flowing River very cute. Okay forget about the cute part, it does make some sense doesn't it?
And I suddenly feel quite sad about someone. Maybe if I wasn't like that last time, things wouldn't turn out this way. We could have been different, but I guess last time I was just too caught up with feeling annoyed that I failed to see things in a different light. Anyway, that's the price I have to pay. I'll spend the rest of the holidays trying to deceive myself that everything had gone according to plan, that nothing had gone wrong, but there will always be this part of me filled with regret.
On a lighter note, diya sang very well in project superstar =)
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
19.11.06
I shall take this time to blog about what happened on friday!
Okay so after checking class list (melissa discovered her potential lab mate to be: gao xiao xiao) we went to watch step up, which is quite nice. Then we went to heeren and melissa came up with the idea of we going to different shops and staring at the t- shirts/jackets/shorts/shoes rack and picking something we think looks the best out of everything, and the other two people would have to guess what we chose. Its quite fun! A good boredom killer anyway.
So it started off pretty well, with melissa and I choosing the same adidas shoe and all that. After a while we moved to another shop with this rack of t shirts and wingyau happily volunteered to let us guess her favourite shirt first. Okay so Melissa and I started rummaging through the rack and going through almost every t shirt, except the last few which I thought shouldn't even be considered. Then we find and point and find and point but every single "nice enough" shirt we pointed at apparently weren't good enough for wingyau! So, getting desperate, melissa moved to the shirts which I had deliberately left out and pointed and pointed and tada! Wingyau finally nodded, and a split second later came melissa's extremely shocked and stunned and loud "HARH!?" and soon after that came our fits of laughter. Thankyou wingyau for being such a great friend, you actually made my t shirt taste look wonderful =)
p.s. I am sorry for being sarcastic, don't beat me! okay I'm just joking! i didn't mean it. wingyau's taste really isn't that bad.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
12.11.06
Hello! I shall be the first (and probably last) one to blog about chalet. Fine, actually i'm the second one cos sheila has already blogged but that's if you actually count hers as a post because it consisted of only three words. I like our chalet room cos it has this nice and big wall for me =D And the toilet was quite clean! So the first day we wanted to go cycling but it rained so we went to the arcade instead. I realised how fast the arcade eats our money. $25 disappeared in quite a short while or so it seems. Yup then after dinner ( a rather satisfying pizza) I stoned while all of them crowded around the tv watching gong -.- And we spent the rest of the night playing tai tee and bridge! After sheila left we started our w*** forfeit for the losing pair in bridge =) huiying lost 20 times! But she didn't turn red at all. Nevermind, wingyau and I have good blood circulation yeah =D And stupid wingyau, stop asking whether I am really gay! Remaining in the tau gay position means that I am consistent okay! At least i'm not like some people who fluctuate from taufik to tau pok. The bed was very comfortable! just that all of us were like freezing that night. If only the blankets don't have holes.
Okay then second day. I love my breakfast! Half boiled eggs and roti prata. Wanted to go to escape but it was closed so huiying melissa huifun and I went cycling instead. It was very nice! I feel sad for those two who had to slowly comb their way through the park in their roller blades. hehe. Luckily wingyau didn't try the tandem with me, I have a feeling we would have failed rather miserably. Then it rained and we went to the arcade again. I like the super mario machine cos we can have our picture taken. So cute right! Melissa and huiying looked very funny. And then we had our "lunch" and we went back and played in the chalet. Huiying played volleyball with me too! Not bad.
My dinner was quite stupid. This hong kong noodle thing looked so nice in the menu but it turned out to be just maggi mee add hot water and a piece of luncheon meat. I went to the arcade with huiying while the gong fans busied themselves with the tv. I think I spent like $17 in the arcade all together =/ And I lost in twister! Had such bad luck, like how am I supposed to stretch my arms so far with wingyau right in the center blocking my way! So poor me had to take the middle of the bed )= but it didn't turn out to be that bad after all, except one time when huiying and I rolled into each other and she kong-ed my head. Oh and sheila looks very funny when driving the racing cars in the arcade! Like some auntie driving a car. But she turned out to be not bad.
Last day! Wingyau melissa huiying and I went to escape to make use of our free voucher. Haha huifun didn't get to go after all, so much for the sulking. Yup and we got to hear melissa's famous "raahhh" again! How very entertaining. The lousy inverter was closed again, but oh well. Yup and that concludes our chalet! I think it was quite enjoyable and relaxing and no I am not sick of bridge yet.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
8.11.06
The past two days have been happy days! I don't know why I liked them so much also. Just felt very happy during those two days, maybe it's because i've suddenly found back my love for that thing! hahaha. I shall not say what that thing is cos people will laugh at how stupid I am to fall in love with that! I've never loved it so much before, and nowadays it just gets into my mind whenever I don't have anything else to distract my mind from. Nevermind I really hope I don't become obsessed with it too early, it may just fade away before I even have time to grab hold of any part of it.
Maybe that's the thing about wishes and dreams; you spend all your time waiting for the moment when everything feels just nice, and when you finally feel that your life has come to where you want it to be, you start spending time worrying about when the great feeling will suddenly disappear. After all, good things don't always last forever, do they? Before you know it, it fades away just as you are about to actually start enjoying the great moment.
Anyway, going for chalet tomorrow! Feeling quite excited. I really hope we'll all have a good time, and i'll try my best to make sure that we do!
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
4.11.06
Was very bored just now so I decided to visit blogs that I hardly visit. Blogs of people that I don't really talk to nowadays, and I started to feel this indescribable pang of "dunno-what!"
Sometimes I can't help but feel that there are some people whom you just need to meet once to know how much you will come to like that person if given the chance. Speaking to that one person that you've just known that day for a few hours can make you feel as though you have known that person for over a year. Yeah that's how deep an impression some people are able to leave on others. I just wish that I could have gotten to know these people (or rather, this person) a lot better, that we didn't just have one day to talk to each other. Mind you, this "one day" happened more than two years ago and I still remember it so clearly til today.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
3.11.06
Hello choral night is finally over! For us, that is. Though we still have fund raising tomorrow. Anyway thankyou everyone for all the flowers! They look very nice in the vase now. Hmm I am very tired now so I shall not blog too long a post. But anyway, I feel like doing a brief recap.
Monday! Hsiuchin was a funny mother of cherie and I had a nice time laughing at cherie chua and her famous super long arm pit hair =D Hmm and 208's was quite nice too. Simple but good. Oh and thankyou cherie for your nicely wrapped bouquet!
Tuesday! hahaha elaine chia! I think the role really suited her. She is ahem "this-kind-of-people" one. And she just told me an extremely amusing story about how she didn't know you had to break the lightsticks. Apparently she thought she accidentally broke them (when you are actually supposed to) and wanted to change for new light sticks. -.- And the 204's last item was really funny as well! On the whole tuesday was not bad.
Wednesday! Kristie wong the cinderella -.- I suddenly burst out laughing when I saw her. The skit was quite funny! espescially the scenes with the uhh rapist. 209's skits were qutie good too. And sheila cheng was giggling away at the thought of using RV uniform for the costume for the nurse. Cheryl's costume was super funny and Lydia acted her xian guan pretty well. I could only see michelle's mouth opening and closing heh, but she was very cute. Oh and Hazel was very funny too!
Then today, I think on the whole our group was not too bad. I didn't expect the audience to laugh so much during the hawker centre scene. And at least our scene change wasn't as bad as it could have been, only one time the stupid av turned the lights on too fast and joey and company were caught running away =) Yup so thankyou everyone for putting in so much effort and making tonight very nice! And thankyou to the second half for cheering for us quite loudly, your skit was very funny! Espescially wenqi and her expressions. Yup and tingshan and stephanie acted their roles well during the full dress rehearsal so I'm sure they did even better on the actual one.
okay! Shall go and sleep now. I think i blogged longer than expected.
Friday, November 03, 2006
29.10.06
Everyone looks so cute in this picture! But those espescially cute are circled in red =) hehe. The person circled specially in blue wins the baby face award! The prize: A milk bottle.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
26.10.06
You know, I never actually thought that things like this could affect me so much, but the sting of what happened a few days ago is still lingering on and I can't get rid of it. I feel quite bad cos I've been in a snappish mood at home. I guess that is what's so bad about getting hurt. You don't just get hurt, you start hurting others too. Others who don't mean to hurt you at all. Maybe it's because after being wounded, you find that your only way of defense is to learn from the person who hurt you, and hurt others as well. Or maybe you're just merely getting infected by the so called mean streak. After all, for a while it will be hard to believe that genuine kindness does exist when you feel that all your trust has been robbed from you. I really don't want to believe that this is the truth, but I can't really run from it when the real truth is staring right at me in the face. It's like piecing together a piece of jigsaw puzzle just to find out how ugly the puzzle actually looks like.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
17.10.06
Just realised how extremely slowly my number of posts have been increasing. I know it's after exams and I probably should be having all the time in the world now, but I don't seem to get a kick out of blogging these days. Anyway, call me stupid or somtehing but I actually visited xia xue's blog. Oh but I shall not bother to elaborate on how ________ I felt after that, in case someone who reads my blog happens to be a huge fan of her secretly. cough.
And finally! No more getting back of exam papers for the rest of the year. It's been extremely boring for someone like me who really can't be bothered to try to squeeze out a few more marks just to add to my pathetic scores. Yes well, I guess I have to pay that price of being too lazy to being too lazy to listen to the chinese teacher. In the end I want to try to get more marks to add to my extremely pathetic chinese also cannot. Oh well, at least my marks can be a consolation for those people who derive their self confidence from the fact that there is someone out there who got lower than them.
I don't like how some people generalise and judge others, and I'm very grateful for the fact that she chose her instead. Shows that results don't always tell everything yeah? You don't just need marks. Okay I know I'm making full use of the power of anonymity here, but this year's coming to an end already and I don't want to say anything here that may spark off some other complication.
How nice. You find talking to me exasperatingly enjoyable and I find talking to you enjoyably exasperating. =)
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
11.10.06
I know I don't usually do this, but this song keeps getting stuck in my head and I like it too much, so here goes:
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
He said
"Will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."
When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go. Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
When you're gone we want you all to know We'll Carry on,
We'll Carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
Carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I cant contain it
The anthem wont explain it.
And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all
So paint it black and take it back
Lets shout it loud and clear
Do you fight it to the end
We hear the call to
To carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on
And on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause
I could not care at all Do or die
You'll never make me
Cause the world, will never take my heart
You can try, you'll never break me
Want it all,
I'm gonna play this part
Wont explain or say i'm sorry
I'm not ashamed,
I'm gonna show my scar
You're the chair, for all the broken Listen here, because it's only..
I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
Just a man,
I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care
Carry on
We'll carry on
Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated You're weary widow marches on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
We'll carry
We'll carry on
Oh we invited ourselves to estella's house today. No more of sheila invited us and I conveniently followed. Anyway, I can therefore conclude that out of the dont know how many rounds of bridge we played, whenever estella partnered me we won =) Don't worry I shall not be ego and give all the credit to myself! And my monopoly was so pathetic! It was the first time I became bankrupt )=
p.s. Estella's maid thinks im very cute. heh. (im just kidding that I actually agree with her. ahem.)
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
9.10.06
hoho exams are finally over! Nevermind I won't start hyperventilating or anything. I don't know why even though I've always been waiting for this special to come, I don't feel extremely happy or anything. Just glad that everything is over I guess. Maybe it's cos I've already started relaxing before the science paper =/ anyway I shall not bother about thinking about how screwed the papers are already! I won't let them spoil the rest of my year =)
stay alive is quite nice! The woman behind us was so funny la. She was like watching it alone? How sad, the only person in that row some more. I think there was a grand total of 9 people in the cineplex including me and wingyau. And wingyau very funny also! But I should have expected something like that from her. After eating lunch we just sat on those tables and played cards for like dont know how long. And me and sheila managed to catch up with estella and clara on our way to far east although we were like 200m behind thanks to my sharp eye which spotted clara's big fat crumpler from afar.
And I decided that I shall not embarrass myself by walking with sheila and deciding to race with her on the fake track on the floor of cineleisure -.- she was like persistently keeping to her "lane" and refusing to budge when poeple were walkting on the same lane as her so she ended up crawling through the little gaps between groups of people and upholding her famous reputation of looking (and behaving!) like a mouse =) okay don't kill me sheila.
Monday, October 09, 2006
27.9.06
And all it takes is just one thought to trigger off a thousand memories. Gosh I realise how unfair the world can be sometimes (although I still believe that Rome was not built in a day! If you know what I mean) You can be the most unreasonable friend someone can ever have but yet she digs through all the "shit" that you give her and believe that underneath everything, there's still someone who is actually nice. And the "shit giver" can actually be blind to the fact that her friend has forgiven her for every single thing she has ever done.
Oh I can't wait to go to East Coast park and spend that nice lovely day with the lovely sweet you under the big coconut tree. To me, you are everything I could ever ask for
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
23.9.06
wingyau is getting her LG chocolate phone tomorrow!
Everybody that reads this, please don't think I'm going to copy her 2 or 3 weeks later.
Actually, I have been saying all along I wanted this phone.
And I was supposed to get it before her until I don't know how but she managed to bribe her mother.
So next time when I finally get my long awaited LG chocolate, which by the way, will be a while after wingyau gets hers, please don't think that I am so childish as to copy her. Cos it's actually the other way round. Thankyou =D
p.s. I love mooncakes! Pink champagne moon cake =D
Saturday, September 23, 2006
17.9.06
I remember back in primary school (okay maybe i should not say "back in primary school" it makes me sound very old). Fine correction: 2 or 3 years ago when I was still in primary school, I used to pride myself in being someone who knew exactly where her life was heading. I admit this may not sound like much, because well, in primary school wasn't everyone just so sure that they would become doctors when they grow up? But then, ignorant (I will avoid using the word stupid!) as I was last time, I remember I scorned at others for being so stereotyped in thinking.
I certainly wasn't the kind who would go "wow you want to be a doctor? me too!" when someone proudly announces that her dream is to become a doctor. Anyway, back to the point. When I was younger, I knew exactly what I wanted and I knew exactly where I was heading. But somehow along the way in secondary school, my "I-know-exactly-what-I-want" attitude has gradually faded away. It's not because I'm deprived of opportunities, on the contrary, it's because I have the freedom and maybe just too many opportunities that I really don't know where to head. I know they say it's normal but I feel that by not knowing exactly what to do, I'm just wasting everything away. It's not that I've lost my directions, I just don't know where to take that next crucial step to.
Oh well, so much for finally being in a blogging mood. I need to go and sleep now. Okay it's not that I'm really forced to go to sleep now, I'm just sleeping now because I think I need to do so.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
8.9.06
Every night I've been staring at this stupid blank page and there are three reasons why I do not simply fill it!
1)I want to say something but I can't really say it here
2)I simply have nothing I find that is nice to blog about. Well, who wants to hear about my boring life?
3)I have something to type but something distracts me and when the clock strikes past eleven I decide that I will blog about it the next day.
And it goes around in this circle. On and on. So today I have decided to fill it with whatever I have! It kills boredom as well.
Oh I suddenly remember the many reasons why Estella should treat me to something!
-She plucked out my one and only golden hair thinking it was white
-Her big shoulder bone keep banging my shoulder until very painful
-She don't let me listen to my all new jay chou cd =D. Literally had to pry her away from the radio.
-Err she brainwashed liwen to make me a bimbo
-Last but not least, she made me miss the bus 67 that came, happily boarded her 154 that came next, and left me waiting at the bus stop for the next 10 minutes.
I think my grandmother reckons I've become some mute person. I think I hardly said more than 5 lines for the whole of tonight when I was at her house. Haha and she will secretly complain to my mum about how quiet I am! But sorry la just so happens that every friday night I will just feel very drained and don't feel like talking at all.
Okay, I blogged =D
Friday, September 08, 2006
8.9.06
Every night I've been staring at this stupid blank page and there are three reasons why I do not simply fill it!
1)I want to say something but I can't really say it here
2)I simply have nothing I find that is nice to blog about. Well, who wants to hear my boring life?
3)I have something to type but something distracts me and when the clock strikes past eleven I decide that I will blog about it the next day.
And it goes around in this circle. On and on. So today I have decided to fill it with whatever I have! It kills boredom as well.
Oh I suddenly remember the many reasons why Estella should treat me to something!
-She plucked out my one and only golden hair thinking it was white
-Her big shoulder bone keep banging my shoulder until very painful
-She don't let me listen to my all new jay chou cd =D. Literally had to pry her away from the radio.
-Err she brainwashed liwen to make me a bimbo
-Last but not least, she made me miss the bus 67 that came, happily boarded her 154 that came next, and left me waiting at the bus stop for the next 10 minutes.
I think my grandmother reckons I've become some mute person. I think I hardly said more than 5 lines for the whole of tonight when I was at her house. Haha and she will secretly complain to my mum about how quiet I am! But sorry la just so happens that every friday night I will just feel very drained and don't feel like talking at all.
Okay, I blogged =D
2.9.06
oh the previous post got something wrong so cannot do the poll thing yet. ignore that post.(:
Saturday, September 02, 2006
1.9.06
ESTELLA CHIN NING
ME OF COURSE =D
CHICK TAN YEN JIN
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Friday, September 01, 2006
24.8.06
My stomachache happily stopped at eleven something today! I was afraid it would be as terrible as last time, but luckily not. Still, I rather get fever or something if I fall ill cos stomachaches are official enerygy drainers. I was so tired after 'working' in the toilet that I slept and slept when I came out. And elaine chia, i seriously think you were the one who jinxed me for this! Anyway, thankyou yenjin for running up and running down twice =) think of it as a weight loss session!
I know I haven't been blogging much for the past few days. Actually it's not that I don't have much to blog about. I probably have too many things to blog about that if I blog about one thing after another, (let's say in the first paragraph I talk about someone whom I think has good values but just needs a serious sorting out of her priorities, and in the next paragraph, I write about I myself not knowing what to do about somethings,) I'll end up sounding like this hypocrite who does not practice what she preaches. So I guess I might as well not say anything and let things go the way they are.
And you know I don't actually want this to happen.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
16.8.06
Oh today I finally lost to estella chin cos I reached slightly later than her. But it's not very fair! Cos she has mrt and my stupid 171 took so long so even when I tried to salvage the situation by taking one stop mrt from newton (a bit dumb, really) I still lost. Ate pepper lunch with a *cough* horse. Estella started it by writing that I was 50 something on the feedback form! And adding stupid stuff. So nvm I got back my revenge. Then we err claimed back wingyau (sorry but the pepper really isn't hot!) and decided to pass time by attempting to find costumes but due to certain uncooperativeness we failed.
Then the KTV. Sang some stupid songs! Too stupid and embarrassing to be named here =) But the rest were okay, just that the recent songs didn't have a lot of variety. And Melissa came after wingyau left thus our finale song was bu de bu ai, much to estella's erm excitement. But the place was kind of like a rip off! We didn't want the stupid popcorn/prawn crackers or that dish of fruits and they happily placed it there and charged dunno how much for it. So even with the coupon it's like so expensive. At least the bubble teas melissa and I had were nice. Oh and we didn't make use of the microphones at all. Yup that's about it.
Standing found ,goals set. All it takes now is the 100% of effort.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
16.8.06
Hello I am quite angry with some people! Feel like ranting about them now =D
Stop blaming others for whatever you lack! Don't you think its your fault that things happened that way? Why are you always so self righteous that you have to blame others and not admit that you were the one who caused yourself to have those consequences?
And you! I'm sorry but just go away okay? I know it's not your fault I have to face all these, that you don't even know its happening. But raaahhh. You should have known I really never wanted all that.
Fine my rants aren't that long. I refrained from talking about some people. Oh anyway, I forgot to save the conversation with cherie chua! The act bimbo. Hahaha she was so damn funny during training yesterday. Cos we were at the outdoor court and it started drizzling half way and she stood there and pouted. "weihh! Aren't we going in? Its raining!" And kept making funny bimbo actions. And if someone ever writes a book about tales with cherie chua i'm sure it will just come out as some comic that is seemingly nice but off putting once they see cherie's face there.
Training was okay, don't think I should have ran cos my knee hurt after that. Gosh my everything is deproving! I think my muscles are shrinking in size as well. Nevermind two to three more weeks. Must bear with it.
Okay I am going out soon! And I haven't even eaten breakfast yet. So I better go now.
12.8.06
The suite life of zack and cody is quite funny actually. As much as I hate to admit it to our dear elaine chia. Bet she's grinning from ear to ear right now. She loves to see people having great reactions to the things to say:
(elaine)zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
WALAO U SO LITLE REACTION
(me)laughter. the best cover. says:
oh you went?
laughter. the best cover. says:
sorry la!
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
WENT WAD WENT
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
ITS NXT WK LAH
laughter. the best cover. says:
ohhh
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
THEY CAM ETO PRACTISE
laughter. the best cover. says:
wait
laughter. the best cover. says:
sorry
laughter. the best cover. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
laughter. the best cover. says:
IM SO AMUSED
And then later on, after hearing that I wasn't as jidong as she wanted me to be...
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
why r u so calm
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
u evil pig!
laughter. the best cover. says:
what!
laughter. the best cover. says:
ok
laughter. the best cover. says:
i must be very ji dong
laughter. the best cover. says:
oh my god
laughter. the best cover. says:
why the freaking hell does she like her?!
laughter. the best cover. says:
oh my oh my
zack and cody are 1 day younger than me! YAYME! says:
forget it u evil pig
Must have a certain amount of reaction then elaine chia will be happy. But the suite life of zack and cody is more of stupid than the really witty kind of jokes, so I don't know why i laughed so much. Oh but nevermind, i bet you all will start saying it's cos im stupid and i laugh at stupid things. Looking back, I can't really deny that. I suddenly saw yellow pages just now and remembered myself laughing at the name monica chng for more than ten minutes two years back.
Oh my dad is finally coming back from america. And it's quite scary cos he's like flying off just two days after they caught those people plotting to bomb some planes! And my dad is like flying by the american airlines. Gosh. I know I haven't really missed him much (yes punch me right now, he's been overseas for more than two weeks) but it's still kind of worrying dont you think!
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Oh well, bye for now!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
10.8.06
I swear I am not going back to bukit panjang plaza for quite some time!
Okay I was there at 11 something cos my mum refused to cook lunch (fine she was busy, not that she outrightly refused to) and after that I had to wait and wait for sheila and wingyau and I think I walked around the whole shopping centre for like 5 times! And I stepped into almost every shop already. Yup so we completed our toy, surprisingly in quite a short time. I think our toy is very cute! Sponge bob square pants =D
But the librarian is so irritating! She refused to let us use the table (she insisted it was for people using the computer though there wasn't even any computer on the side of the table we were sitting) and said we could only use the red chairs there. Okay she was practically announcing to the whole library la so embarrassing. Fine so we went to this corner to do, and this group of disturbing guys came along. Not long later the same librarian came bustling along and started ticking us (meaning us and the people around) off for the apparently too high noise level. Anyway I thought she was going to scold that group of guys more or something when her attention suddenly diverted to us and she said that we could only study or do work in the library but glue and SCISSORS (spelling credits to wingyau) weren't allowed. How dumb is that. Then she went on to say something about a cctv. -.-
Okay enough of that. Then not long after I went home, my mum said we had to go out again and eat with my sister and tada, guess where she was? bukit panjang plaza! So the story continues and ends at bukit panjang plaza. Gosh so sick of that place already.
Ahhh I don't want to go to school tomorrow. Melissa reminded me of something )= Fine actually I think I was the one who reminded her of it, but then she in turn reminded me of something even worse! Luckily, it has happened already so I really hope it won't happen again. Sigh but I have this bad feeling that I will get a lot of disappoontments.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
2.8.06
Hello! I think I haven't blogged for a long while. Was pretty busy/lazy to blog. Hmm anyway not much happened these days I guess. There's physics test tomorrow. And chinese test on friday which estella is happily skipping -.- But nevermind after this week things will be a lot better! I hope. Hmm history test today. Okay I shall not think about it at all, anyway, i pity ms koh cos my handwriting, which is already very ugly, is like ten times worse in this test cos I was scribbling like shit. Oh well.
Hmm okay I know you want to show off your great achievements but don't you find your attempt rather desperate? If you really want to say it, why don't you just say it directly and not indirectly try to get others to ask you first so you can portray yourself as a humble person?
I'm very sleepy now. And hungry. Height and weight taking sessions are depressing. Espescially the height part. Tomorrow's lessons are until 3 o'clock! I don't feel like going to school.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
24.7.06
I'm feeling quite sleepy now. All thanks to the stupid sorethroat! It just makes me feel very lethargic. Gosh still have the irritating history assignment to do. Though its to hand in on friday, but its so long and I barely have a rough idea of what to write for it.
Oh sabbaticals this week, actually power of the media is not too bad, and the teacher is quite nice. At least she'll let us slack. It was kind of obvious that we didn't bring a pen deliberately so we wouldn't have to fill in the worksheet. Chinese drama is okay, I just find that warm up wushu thing very amusing! Congratulations to estella, the first person who HA-ed along with the teacher -.- And our jie shao is really very stupid. Oh I don't like reciting rao kou ling's also.
The things that seem pretty bad on the outside are slowly picking up and improving. I'm going to put in more effort into them, maybe they aren't that bad after all, they're just blessings in disguise.
On the other hand, I don't know what I should be feeling or doing now. Okay so I've been feeling quite sorry for the things I've done. Or rather for the things I should have done but did not do. There seems to be a lot of nice things others are doing for me now but yet what I'm doing does not convey how grateful I am to them. Or at least that's what I feel.
Sorry! I'll make it up to you somehow.
Monday, July 24, 2006
23.7.06
Hmm I have quite a lot of things to comment on! I don't know why but I just feel like writing all my comments about today.
Before the concert I went marina square, actually wanted to shop but in the end no time so my mum and I went for this very nice dinner! Its at this jap restaurant called ministry of sound. My udon was full of fluffy nice egg =) And the dessert had 30% discount so we happily splurged. The dessert is interesting as well! And the hot chocolate comes with marshmellow. Okay my mum actually wanted to go back for a second round of dessert after the concert but it was too late.
Oh so its the first time we could actually stroll into the esplanade (yes everytime we go for a concert we would be like rushing in). And I saw a lot of teachers! From nygh and nyps. Gosh I might have as well gone around wearing a permanent smile on my face. And how I wish my hair doesn't make myself so recognisable lah. Let's see who I saw.
1) Mrs chek
2) Mrs tang (nyps vice principle-she conveniently patted the top of my head and said I've grown a lot taller -.-)
3) Mdm Mak (okay luckily I avoided her in time)
4) A nanyang teacher whose name I forgot
5) Another nanyang teacher whose name I forgot
6) Mdm Heng (nyps principle. I wanted to vomit when she said I have grown into a sweet young lady-after translation into english)
7) Mr. Ellis (hmm I don't know how to spell?)
8) Another nanyang teacher I forgot her name
9) Mdm Toh
10) Shirlene tieh (conveniently avoided)
11) Ms Hanim
12) Lydia Teo (hahaha she's so funny she wave to me enthusiastically like i'm her long lost friend like that. And her hairstyle looked very different.)
There's probably a few more that I missed out, but oh well, don't bother. Oh and last but not least, I saw cherie chua just before going home. Haha okay so I saw this
I wanted to give some item-item analysis of tonight's concert but my post is already quite long! And it's quite late already. So I shall just give a brief one. Starting item with the concert band and modern dance is not bad, just that I couldn't spot anyone. String ensemble not bad too, but I think that solo guy played too long already. I can imagine Isabel's brother coming back from england next time and doing the same thing.
Sadly, the item which warrened to most applause was the dance with the kindergardten. Okay I was sitting in an area surrounded by over enthusiastic parents who were busy waving non stop to their child on stage. Before they even started dancing the parents were already getting ready to wave to them. Ok I said sadly because I dont think they had to put in as much effort into their item? But maybe I'm wrong. They're quite cute though. Hmm and the chinese ochestra and guzheng one is nice. My dad seems to like them a lot. And the percussion ensemble is nice too! Quite entertaining, I wonder how they coordinate so well lah.
Then some poetry thing (comprising of mainly, if not all china imports) and nyps chinese dance, which I don't know why but it reminded me of elaine chia pushing the board in p6 =P Anyway, it's pretty good. But I doubt any of the p6 people from nyps performed, they all look so small! Intermission, then modern dance again. And wushu is probably one of the most entertaining ones =) The person at the sac which estella found so amusing performed solo. Then um ai4 xin1 shu4 again, okay i think i know the story very well already, after watching 3 different performances of it! Chinese dance, I didn't manage to spot anyone again. And liwen, don't try to bluff me that you're one of the beautiful white ones -.- hmm theatre club performance was a bit like a dance. I pity the people who were pushed up stage and had to bow to the audience 3 times for no reason.
haha and the grand finale! comprising of 南小 (nan xiao) ,南中 (nan zhong) and 南老 (nan lao). Now I understand why they were making such a big fuss about the nanyang alumni being really alumni. So the choir sang first, I think I have sharp eyesight =D I managed to spot estella in about 5 seconds, and not because her face is outstanding -.- Hmm I think the nanyang choir sings better without the additions of the young and old.
Yup okay, that's about it. A round of applause to you if you read every single word of it. I think im too bored already. The ending was rather anti climax though. The principles just stood up there to pose.
Shall finally sleep now!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
21.7.06
So I saw two doctors today. One for stomach, one for my knee! The alexandra hospital sports clinic is very nice =) Okay I like the gym area with all the machines. It's like some doing extra PT training when she made me do all the exercises. Quite fun. But the rub was extremely painful! The physiotherapist was like using her whle body weight to use her knuckles to rub my leg. Gosh. And the pain I felt was more of in my head than on my legs. I pity the physiotherapist though, she goes around touching everyones dirty feet.
断了的琴弦
弹奏着从前
一起走过的路线没有终点
昏黄的光线
照射陈旧的水面
映出那朵玫瑰思念的画面
你走的那天我决定不掉泪
迎风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼
I suddenly think this song is very nice! =)
Friday, July 21, 2006
20.7.06
Hoho I am really sick! Hmm my mum suspects I have food poisoning. Anyway I am like energyless now, even after sleeping. After standing for a while I have to sit down. anyway i think vomit and diarrhea are horrible things. And I strangely feel cold and dizzy also lah. Dizzy maybe, but cold? I don't have fever.
I think chinese dance today was very amusing! Cos I missed two dance lessons so I didn't know what to do. I wanted to copy sheena but people were blocking her so I ended up having to copy from the people who were conveniently in front of me, estella and melissa. And following them is very funny! I think I ended up learning all the wrong moves =P
Okay bathroom here I come again.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
18.7.06
Oh crap tomorrow is going to be such a boring day! Pe is the only nice lesson. After that, lang arts timed trial, chinese we're probably going to write some stupid xiao shuo, and history take notes to keep myself awake. Raahh. Oh well at least it's quite a short day. Can look forward to going home. Oh AHEM and I are supposed to compete during pe lesson. Haha I will surely win! =DD (okay it sounds ego but its actually quite unflattering). Hmm actually, I think we should compete with a game of badminton too =) AHEM can go and show off her nice drop shots in the process.
CIP with woodlands primary was pretty slack and boring. Well we sort of just stood around there while jomain and lynn etc talked most of the time. And there wasn't enough time for similes so I didn't have to do anything =) I wanted to fall asleep standing there! And stupid sheila has to go and fulfill her dare. Now I have to treat her to fried mars bar. Haha but the girl was really quite cute yeah. But no one else is as sad as sheila about leaving her -.-
Okay tonight is finally the night where i can sleep earlier!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
17.7.06
******* **** ***G! It doesn't matter what desperate messures you are taking now to um widen your thighs already, no matter what, I will win! And get to see you march around some shopping centre in the gorgeous green tube top. Hehe. I seriously doubt that I will lose! But nevermind, we shall see on wednesday.
Okay I don't know what else to blog about. Oh my phone got confiscated thanks to clara lum who was happily sending some song from my phone to hers during drama lesson right in front of gary tang. So I'll probably just get it back tomorrow when he passes our phones to siva koh. Oh well. Drama is so err. hmph! Laugh then laugh lah next time your turn i also laugh so loud lor )=
Monday, July 17, 2006
16.7.06
Pump.
It's uncontrollable, unstoppable.
Part of me wants to just soak into the whole feeling, let my mind run wild.
But another part knows that I should never have let it get into me in the first place.
Gosh I don't know what to do.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
15.7.06
A lot of things happened this week. Okay maybe its not really that much, but the things that happened are kind of new and different. Good or bad, I should be thankful that they actually had some spice, shouldn't I? But oh well, I don't really know what I should be feeling. Things that I shouldn't really be feeling happy about are actually lifting up my spirits.
Anyway, went to the polyclinic to get the referral letter to alexandra hospital so it will be like five times cheaper when i go to the sports clinic the next time. But had to queue and queue and wait for a super long time before it was finally my turn. But its the first time a visit to the doctor only cost me $4. How cheap. Though the doctor didn't do much as well, she just kept bending my knees here and there and gave me the referral letter.
I realised a lot of people are not who we think they are. If you actually bother to look beyond that impression someone leaves on you, I guess sometimes you'll discover things that you never expected to be there. Or sometimes, people are like toys that look so flawless on the outside but spoil quickly once we start playing with them.
Did you know how happy you made her feel last time? Maybe you didn't see it, but I did. And what are you doing to her now? That flame that once flickered so brightly has been extinguished by the one who gave it its spark. I don't think she would like to know how little you actually care about her now.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
10.7.06
I have quite a mind to start ranting about the many things/people to complain about today!
1)I really think that I should just give that someone one of those free pencil cases that come along in goody bags during birthday parties when we were little kids. Or those that come free when you sit the air plane when you were younger. At least that whole set includes a pen, pencil, ruler and eraser. But ahh no. Correction tape is still missing from it and apparently it's the item from my pencil box that is on the highest demand.
2)It's very irritating when you put in a lot of effort into something or you really try your best and just because they dont seem to see it, everything goes down the drain. I don't need to be recognised for something that I do, but it's just frustrating when other people don't see you do it and don't think you actually did them.
3)And my knee! Okay it has been painful all along but once I start exercising it gets worse. It's not the splitting kind of pain where you really can't walk or anything but the pain gradually builds up. And it's always the worst when I get down from the bus and still have to walk all the way in. Raah hurry go recover!
Of course, after watching all the football I feel very drained now. Not the sleepy kind of tiredness, just feel very energyless! Okay this post is crap. Shall stop now.
Monday, July 10, 2006
8.7.06
"And you know that a few years down the road all that's happening now would just end up being talked about in the normal old friends gathering where we just sit around and laugh about how we behaved back then."
"I can already hear you struggling to comment on how stupid we were in between your guffaws. It's hard to imagine that all these things that we're going through now would just end up as a lunchtime joke in the future. Things that are now occupying most of our thoughts would eventually turn out to be something so seemingly trifle? I really can't imagine it."
"That's why you shouldn't let things affect you too much now. It's what you learn from incidents that would affect you in the future. Not the countless mistakes that you made, but the valuable lessons learnt from them."
"And the lessons I learnt from you too. I've never told you this before, but sometimes I'm afraid. What if all these future old friend gatherings never happen? What if that one goodbye would be the last goodbye ever?"
"That's why we should make the best out of whatever time we have left. Life's unpredicament leaves no time for hidden thoughts."
"I don't care what some people comment about us. I'll miss you. You and the little acts of false pretence that not many would understand. You know, on the days where communication doesn't flow as smoothly, I would feel there's something lacking."
"As long as we are all understanding of each other's need for our own space, privacy and freedom, we will feel better."
"Sometimes what I do on the outside contradicts everything that I'm actually thinking inside. I don't even know why I do some things that I do. I'm sorry, I know my actions disappoint you sometimes."
"It's okay, because everything about you, including the mistakes that you made, is what really made me understand myself."
Saturday, July 08, 2006
6.7.06
Finally revived my blog! Okay pardon me if the blog isn't entirely ready yet. Still missing out quite a lot of links and that the "pictures" section is basically non existent. Decided to revive my blog to kill away the boredom of sitting at home finding something to do while everyone else is in school but I ended up playing neopets (fine lah very childish lah, that's why sheila can proudly display her msn picture) and only started searching for a skin for about an hour ago.
The clinic seems to have very good business these days. The doctor was happily saying that many patients are suffering from football fever. Anyway, I hope Italy wins! Or else almost every result that I have predicted would be wrong.
It's great to know that even though some other's dont, there still are people who genuinely want you to do well, and would feel happy for you despite smoe circumstances.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
25.5.06
Cry for that blindness that caused everything to fall apart.
Cry for the kindness in their hearts that touch everything.
Cry for the truth that people would do anything to get what they want. Anything, despite the pain that they cause others.
Smile for the fact that this may make me a braver person.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
22.5.06
Oh my blog shall go on hiatus after this post! Okay im not deleting the blog but I guess I feel like taking a break from blogging for a while.
It hurts to know that when there are people who would never think of harming you and would always be there for you, there are also other people who just lets their jealousy get the better of themselves and do everything they can to cause damage to you. Sometimes I just can't stand it.
Talk about the Bitch Theatrics! Its actually quite interesting analysing the minds of bitches. Fake the smie. Fake everything. The only true thing left they have are the opposite meanings of their words.
Monday, May 22, 2006
10.5.06
Today is 10th May! Means 21 more days..ahem. Yes Sheila I am finally starting some countdown thing as you have predicted. Don't worry I'm probably not going to count the number of days after this post. Anyway, I have resisted temptations to buy lots of stuff lately! Saving up for that day. hehe. =D Although I guess all these stuff that I want are just things on the surface. Material things that will never really make me that happy, and there are other things that I want on my birthday that can make me truly happy. But oh well, receiving presents or cards are still part and parcel of the things that give you joy for your birthday, aren't they?
Oh well recently some not-so-happy things have been happening to some people, and I just want to say that no matter what, you all shouldn't give up hope. That anything is still possible if you really work for it. Don't worry about the pereptions that others have developed about you. Just work hard and show them all that you're really more than what they think you are.
And my history marks are so crap. Gaaaahhh. Stupid combined humanities!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
4.5.06
you know what?
I'm motivated. I should be feeling sad, but on the contrary, im a lot more motivated. And I am not going to let this shit day affect me anymore. I guess life is full of contradictions. I laughed so much when I was supposed to cry.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
3.5.06
Having so much, yet feeling so lacking.
And no I am not depressed! In case some people are getting different ideas.
I don't think I've ever felt really depressed before? Sad definitely. But depression isn't something I have tasted before and want to taste.
I can't stand that comprehension passage! How can anyone bother writing such a long and boring piece of expository discussing about the contradiction of human behaviour with regards to animals? As in seriously I just died reading it.
Assembly was boring, but it was very amusing seeing mdm mak have such a sudden outburst! hahaha.
What's wrong? I don't know. Yet I know something's wrong, something is definitely missing. Maybe it's just my lack of courage.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
2.5.06
Haha whatever lah! I respect her a lot more than I respect you even though you are very pro. Humility, my dear. Where has yours gone to?
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
30.4.06
I would like to comment that though there isn't really something proper to define a blog, a blog is a place where you can write the the thoughts that you dont usually share with other people, and does not have the need to reflect what people observe about you on the surface.
I guess what you said is true then, that everyone has the power to evoke different emotions in ourselves. That being with different people would change us into an entirely different person. And that's why as people, we tend to mix around with a group of people we are comfortable with. This group of friends resemble a treasure chest. Each treasure in the chest is special; it has a different shape, colour and size. We love every piece of treasure inside, some more, some less. But we treasure them nonetheless, and that's why we call it a treasure chest. And like the treasures in the chest, each friend is special to us. Being with each friend would make us feel different, and makes us change into a different person. Every friend would teach us a different value, and show us a different light to life. In turn, after every experience with them, we would like some of them more and some of them less, but nonetheless, we treasure them all as friends. But unlike the treasures in the treasure chest that would remain the same forever, friends change. They change in 'shape', 'colour', and 'size' and are never really the same. We may not like what they have changed to, and they may not have the same impact as they had on us in the past, but afterall, what is friendship? Does a growing distance or different interests mean that we cannot still remain as friends? Aren't true friends the ones who would remain there and give us the same support despite how much we have changed?
Sunday, April 30, 2006
23.4.06
I'm starting to really like this game of pretence a lot. After all, isn't it the unpredicament of life that gives it its zest? The very fact that for everything we say, we actually mean the opposite. And in truth, we do know what each of us mean to say, yet we just don't know. Each sentence is thrilling, just like a rush of adrenaline pumping through the blood stream. And the knowledge that things this simple could get you as high as when you're on a rollercoaster ride.
I wish we could go back to doing all those stupid stuff again.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
21.4.06
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING!
Fine that's a bit too exaggerated. But aiya!
Anyway, don't know what has gotten into me these two days. Got pissed over some small things. Actually today was better but then she came and I got pissed again. Sometimes I wonder why people just can't open their mouths wider and talk clearly so they won't have slurred words that come out. Or why they have to indirectly try and show off when it isn't something to be really proud of.
Oh I finally got new pe shirt from coro. No more borrowing of old and smelly shirts from my sister when I don't have enough shirts! Geog test was quite okay, but I don't know why I went and spelt wispy as whispy! Must be sheila influence me, we keep writing same answers nowadays.
Things are getting quite confusing nowadays! Maybe its not that its really that confusing or complicated, it could be just our minds that think really deep and start creating all the confusion when really, things are so simple. And maybe we're just better off knowing things on the surface.
Friday, April 21, 2006
16.4.06
I can't believe it I actually slept for 14 hours. Had fever yesterday after coming back from OM so I just slept at 9 something all the way till 11.30 today. But so much sleep really does wonders. My fever and sorethroat has more or less vanished. Now just left with an irritatingly blocked nose.
I kept thinking about OM yesterday. Well its like if we gave two more creative responses during spontaneous or if the judges gave us just a few more marks for long term, then maybe we could have gone home with at least a trophy. But on the other hand, competitions are supposed to be like that, aren't they? We never really know how close or far we are from winning them until the results come, and by then it'll be too late. Anyway, I think it's a good experience and we weren't too bad. So yup, maybe we can try again next year!
Oh and immitation of indian accent really tickles me. I was laughing throughout CHIJ st.theresa's and rgs's performance! hahaha. And right now the memory of their performances still makes me laugh. =D so come forward if you are good in immitating accents!
If only you knew.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
13.4.06
I realised I haven't really been updating! Have been quite busy this week. I felt so overwhelmed. Really glad to have this three day break. At least it's better than nothing.
OM spontaneous! We waited so long for this thing that lasted less than 5 minutes -.-
It wasn't that bad, but not that good either. Didn't expect this sort of question to come up =/
Really, its not about being the best. Its about giving your best. This applies to a lot of things that's happening right now, but I shall highlight this point for OM. It really doesn't matter how good or lousy we are. We've already put in quite a lot of effort and have come this far, so what if we may not win at all? So what if we aren't as good as some other teams? Its about giving our best, during that very moment. We may not feel that we have any chance of doing well, but during those 8 minutes, we should really just leave aside all of those thoughts, and just let the best shine out. Its in all of us, that ability to give our very best. And on Saturday, it doesn't matter what the outcome is, as long as we have given our best.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
9.4.06
Oh man. HAHAHA. why oh why did I just have to go to orchard today! *smirks*
wu wing yau. tsktsk.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
3.4.06
Ahh everything feels quite weird today. Its like, some part of me feels very high, and the other part of me just feels like im in a daze. And I guess the comments on my behaviour proved that my weird feeling showed up =/ Okay so according to Hsiuchin and Grace, I look gong and blur today. "not your usual hyper self " Anyway, I don't think im usually very hyper am I? Espescially after school when I feel extremely sleepy. And when I spoke to elaine on msn, she thought I was an imposter -.- Fine so maybe I don't seem like myself today. I dont feel like myself too. Oh well, I wanted to type a longer post but I think im too tired to. My energy level is so drained, I think my stamina for lasting through a day is very lousy. If I dont sleep enough I will never be able to wake myself completely up the next day. Grr. I think my body sucks. (not meaning for it to sound THAT way)
I don't know why but it really managed to touch me a lot. =)
Monday, April 03, 2006
1.4.06
I can't find the appropriate words to describe this feeling. Is it yearning, craving, or just merely missing? Seriously, I never thought I would feel this way, but I guess today proved it all wrong. I think I detach myself from my emotions too much. The misconception that by detaching myself from those emotions, I wouldn't need to feel the pain. But really, its just like wearing a mask to hide behind from reality, while letting everything pile up. And I just didn't dare to face it earlier when I should have. Well now its too late to say what I wanted to say. Its already gone and won't come back; memories are the only things that would remain.
And my new guitar teacher just makes it worse. His voice is extremely monotonous and he is like going through everything i've learnt again. Not to forget that of all the bands I mentioned, he only recognised greenday and only knew one song from it. Gosh I think im going to die of boredom or something. "The next few weeks we will focus on scales" was the nice sentence to end off -.-
Saturday, April 01, 2006
